monomaniak

2005-02-13T00:41:00.000-08:00

fate has something against me.

i know i swore off blogging yesterday. i know.

and when i say fate has something against me, as well as an evil irony in her humour, cos it could only be a female who would be behind all this scheming.

a year ago, when i said that i'd never go for chinese guys, i had the as of yet biggest crush- on a chinese guy.

and when i said i would never participate in contests cos they were pointless, this medal came in the mail- a Shankar's something something from India. my teacher from a school i spent just one year in submitted my essay and i didn't even know it.

when i first thought that Harry Potter was hardly something to flip over, the fandom just had to come and seduce me.

lots of other little things too. and NOW. i saw two teachers from RGS, in the same morning, in the same place. you've watched Mean Girls, so you know and agree that seeing teachers out of school is like seeing a dog walk on his hind legs.

WELL.

SO ANYWAY.

first at Banquet when i was walking out with my siblings and generally making a lot of noise and looking absurd in my long, long religious school uniform which is chocolate in colour and HUGE- its a sunday morning, im entitled to insanity- i glanced to the side and saw this lady looking at me oddly. then i did a double take.

WHOA. the dance teacher, ms amy, with her beautiful kids. what? they are.

i smiled, ran off.

and that was not enough.

cos when we were driving out i was looking outthe window when i was like omgwtf is that JOESPH TOH?? why do i always see that ~~gay~~ guy?

thank god he didnt hear me but he did see me pointing my finger at him with my mouth wide open and me laughing like hell.

the guy [yes. his sexuality is STILL in question.] he was with was staring at me like i was insane, which, i guess, i looked. but mr toh waved at me an seemed mildly amused, with that smile. HAHAHA. forgive me.

ah well.i think im all laughed out.

btw. keanu reeves is TEH SEX.

more so than draco, hands down. gods.and you must watch constantine.

just because.

SHUT UP//

2005-02-11T17:43:00.000-08:00

HELLOO.

HAVE JUST COME TO INFORM ALL YOU PLEBEY LOYAL READERS THAT ALL MY BLOGS HAVE BEEN SHUT DOWN LIKE WHOA.

SO DO NOT BOTHER VISITING NO MORE. I PLAN TO START UP A WEBBIE FOR MY WORTHLESS WRITINGS BUT WHEN THAT DAY COMES AND NOT SOON EITHER I SHALL PUBLICIZE IT PLEBELY.

IF YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY, IT IS BECAUSE I CARE NOT TO HAVE MY FEELINGS PUBLISHED ALL OVER CYBERSPACE LIKE A PHOTO OF KEANU REEVES' UNDERGARMENTS.

although that wasnt a very bad mental image.

YOU MAY GO NOW. LEAVE COMMENTS BEMOANING MY LEAVE IF YOU WILL.

STRAIGHTJACKET.

2005-02-07T15:10:00.000-08:00

hello, now is this blog layout screwded or whut.

COULD IT BE BECAUSE I AM A quiz whore?

maybe.

also! it is the morning of chinese new year and i am typing in what i have decided is the mother of all straightjackets. why do they call them straightjackets? maybe in olden days they considered homo-and-bisexuals crazy and so they decided to put a straightjacket on them?

possibly.

and harrypotterfanfiction.com rejected my draco/harry story. gaah. fine i shall censor it heavily and THEN post a slightly uncut version on fanfiction.net 'cos it does not review submissions like whoa.

and syimah that greenday song in your blog is positively edible. maybe.

2005-02-07T04:51:00.000-08:00

You scored as Luna Lovegood. You're an extreme introvert and because of this, are also a deep thinker. You ponder things others would never dream of pondering and stand with your beliefs without backing down. You find it more valuable to daydream than to socialize, because there's so much more going on in your head than others'. Most people don't understand it, but you seem to prefer it that way.

Luna Lovegood

94%

Severus Snape

94%

Ron Weasley

88%

Draco Malfoy

88%

Lord Voldemort

84%

Hermione Granger

81%

Oliver Wood

81%

Harry Potter

78%

Sirius Black

69%

Neville Longbottom

59%

Percy Weasley

56%

Bellatrix Lestrange

53%

Remus Lupin

41%

Albus Dumbledore

38%

Harry Potter Character Combatibility Test
created with QuizFarm.com

HELLO.

2005-01-18T16:59:00.000-08:00

HELLO.

this blog is scrambling for a post for some reason or another. SO.

i hate skooolll dammit. i can't talk to anyone and am forced to write snarky comments on the teachers in this pad. no not that, god.

but anyway that pad is getting interesting so maybe that's not a bad thing. oh and alfred hitchcock's last name has a very sexual connotation. you didn't hear it from me.

i am in great trouble but i know by cutting off like this will drive some readers crazy so i will not elaborate. beg and maybe i'll tell you.

did i mention lately that i have no idea what algorithms and partial fractions are. much less the other mathematical jargon that my teacher attempts to stuff into my chocolate-saturated brain.

but on a lighter note, hey! i got nothing.

i want to join the film cluster for RS and propose a short film called cat got your tongue: a monolouge of white lies and such. starring my sortof cat birdbrain. i shall stick her in between the bars of my gate, where she had gotten stuck in before while attempting to get into my house. also i shall tape her fishing a la tom felton.

expect, of course, in my glass pond, her Personal Sushi Bowl. i pasted a sign saying that while my parents debated whether to indeedd make it like that and poison the water and fish.

no, really.

and plot bunny love (!) a dramione fic called the spilling of the blood. in which hermione granger combines magic and chemistry in a brilliant concotion as it is hardly possible for any less to be expected of her, and find that muggle blood has dormant magical genes that are extremely potent if activated. draco offers to join her in her quest for great grades in final year thesisdom.

and other reasons.

but ! no time. bleh.

oh yes, and i think that snapping neoprints with horny guys wrapped around you wearing see through clothing when your mother thinks you wear tudung is vheap behaviour, despite your being highly photogenic. did you even understand that last sentence? no? okay.

why am i so anti social? anyone would think i hated social studies. but really. remember when i took over a year to warm up to syimah and co? even then i barely talked to the rest of 208'04. maybe that's why most of you are bemused at my blog entries.

the song i pasted her is TEH SQUEE. realleh.

Beautiful
by Joydrop

If I was beautiful like you
Oh the things I would do
Those not so blessed would be crying out murder
And I'd just laugh and get away with it too
Like you do
If I was beautiful like you
I would never be at fault
I'd walk in the rain between the rain drops
Bringing traffic to a halt
But that would never be
That will never, never be
Cause I'm not beautiful like you
I'm beautiful like me, I'm beautiful like me
If I was beautiful like you
I'd be quick to assume
They'd do anything to please me, why not
I see their reaction when you walk into the room
But that would never be
Never, never, never be
Cause I'm not beautiful like you
I'm beautiful like me, beautiful like me
Beautiful, beautiful like me
Like me, Like me...
If I was beautiful like you
I'd have so many friends
All fighting for my time to be next in line
So if I hurt one, I wouldn't have to make amends
But that would never be
Never, never, never be
Cause I'm not beautful like you
I'm not beautiful like you
I'm not beautiful like you
I'm beautiful like me
I'm Beautiful like me, beautiful like me
I'm beautiful like me, I'm beautiful like me!

aHA. -smells dramione/slash songficness.

i seriously need a better hobby. parasiting on authors' really is no way to spend a life. aside from the fact that it's what i do obsessively.

and i so love my file. everybody does too. not that i hadn't anticipated that, but it's flattering. feel free to fawn more.

but this taufik love is getting a bit much. i see taufik everywhere. EVERYWHERE. everywhere.

is it really any wonder why i don't buy his cd, what with all this overexposure.

class of my own.

2005-01-05T07:16:00.000-08:00

is it not stupid to cry simply because you think you're heavy and that isn't even true and becuase you think you're oh-so-lonely and pitiable and that no one likes you.

well, no one will if you keep that melancholy up.

anyway. it's obvious that it's difficult to befriend people if you insist on creating a new image for yourself. even then, the thing that makes everything worse is that you aspire to be a bimbo.

alright, alrightt. i resolved not to bitch but it's hard. i am getting more organized, however, suck on that. rofl, i also managed to watch Alfie yesterday.

it's a new year, and i dont like my class, and you all know that i especially don't like a particular one in it. change is good, i guess. but that doesn't make me feel any better when i'm dead bored in a lesson and there's nobody to talk to and exchange the odd sarcasm with.

i've been guilty of being a snob again, as i was surprised at how my cousin, hafiz, was able to blog, and at his perceptiveness. very bad.

oh yes. house practice yesterday was a blast. although not much work was done, which probably is the reason as to why i had fun. they stationed us all around the school, i was partnered with syimah by choice of course. we were crapping and slacking and calling qahhar for nearly 45 minutes.

hasyimah said qahhar's ringtone is a meow. maybe he already answered it cos when i called him later just to bug him he meowed again. meow. meow. meow? and yes there was an obvious question mark at the end so i had to put down in case i strted laughing. even then the taxi driver probably thought me insane.

have i mentioned lately that my history teacher mr ganesh is inpossibly lame? well, now you know.

and speak of the devil.

2005-01-02T02:04:00.000-08:00

&nbsp &nbsp a day late, i guess, but hey, s'not like anyone cares that im backdating this entry a day.
i'm mainly copying this from my one of my many notebooks, as i have a fetish for notebooks so i ramdomly scribble away in the one nearest to me.

&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp i usually do most writing at night, given the choice, as i'm in a half dreamlike state so my ideas come from my subconscious at times, which is of course the best way to write as you literally dream up your best ideas.

&nbsp &nbsp and of course, when i'm half-asleep im not hampered by feelings like embarassment when writing down personal thoughts. the fog in my brain effectively blocks out those feelings. so it allows me to be frank.

&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp in that journal entry i was writing down a conversation between 2005 and me. odd. embarrassing. so that is why i m editing out nearly the entire entry except for the resolutions. if you want to see the book itself [which is unlikely but you can try your luck] ask me.

&nbsp &nbsp i don't like resolutions and planning and everything becayse i don't like the idea of my thoughts being given and shared around, i want to know that at least something, one part of me, is private and individual and i don't care if it's bad for me as long as it is only mine. and i want to stay this age because it's the best age to be, i'm always trying to race against time so that what work i produce, i want to try to give my best so that people look and gasp and say "she's just fourteen?"

&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp because when i'm older and give this kind of work then people will come to expect it of me, of everyone, and it's not special and rare anymore.

&nbsp &nbsp and sometimes the idea of life frustrates me as i can me scared to dream and indulge in what i want, because the possibility that it will never come true and will just tantalize me forever just- revulses me. and my mother still asks why i don't take part in contests.

&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp but besides being selfish, i'm a tactless person and a risk taker so i shall care not about what i might feel and just dream big and try to lighten to odds.
on to the 2005 resolutions then;

In the year 2005 I resolve to:
Fail all of my classes.

Get your resolution here

&nbsp &nbsp no ! wrong ! forget that.

&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp 1] b in the top 5 in my class, consistently, for english and history.normally i would put literature as well. i can't imagine an entire year without that subject. the only one where i could quite literally sleep throughout an entire class and still manage As.

&nbsp &nbsp 2] be punctual in the handing in of all work on time. at the most i shall hand in only one article of work late a fortnight.people who know me are allowed to indulge in a smile and a "yeah riiight."

&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp 3] lose at least 5kg. for the whole year. figures.

&nbsp &nbsp 4] start a novel. start. in the sense that start drafting out plotlines/bunnies, characters and then some.

&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp 5] use the computer only 1½ hours a day. including the time at the beginning of a school day.

&nbsp &nbsp 6] GET ORGANIZED. this hereby includes:

&nbsp &nbsp a) filing weekly.
&nbsp &nbsp b) drawing up a timetable.
&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp c) packing my bag beforehand, preferably the night before.
&nbsp &nbsp d) erm, taking notes in class. good notes. notes that i can actually understand. notes not annotated with grotesque stick figures of the teacher, or of other inane doodles or self-monolouges.
&nbsp &nbsp e) whatever it takes to get organized.

&nbsp &nbsp 7] stop angsting and try to do some productive contemplation instead, which is pretty much impossible.

&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp 8] get better at malay. i suck at malay. my standard is like, primary 1. i haven't touched a malay book or newspaper voluntarily since like, primary 3.

&nbsp &nbsp 9] stop using the word like out of context. it's, like, so bimbo.

&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp 10] stop using phone's internet capabilities.

&nbsp &nbsp 11] limit time spent indulging in obsessions to max. half an hour. daily.

&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp 12] start making better and more achievable resolutions. and actually achieve them.

&nbsp &nbsp -is all. alrightys, this'll go in my memories section and at the end of this year i shall look through and strike out those i've actually done.

&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp that'll not be very many then.
&nbsp &nbsp and i want to study overseas when i'm of a university-going age. i will not stay in singapore my entire life, as that will be called a wasted life.

&nbsp &nbsp &nbsp and i will.

2004-12-31T10:13:00.000-08:00

2004, you shall be missed.

the best year of my life has come and gone.

the most eventful year.

release your inner fangirl.

2004-12-27T04:50:00.000-08:00

DRACO MALFOY

HA. HA. like i didn't already know that.

oh yes, and why must emma watson be so incredibly pretty? they're right when they say she's a classic beauty. she is. but when i watched the behind-the-scenes interviews and such she came off as the epitome of bimboticity. gahh.

is it very bad to be addicted? if there are any anti-HP fans out there, don't answer this. just understand that i didn't want to be like this.

what my parents don't understand about harry potter is that there's just so much more to it than they think. to tell the truth i believe that it was one of the many things this december holidays which actually change me, and oh yes, tons of cheesy angst and self-speculation ahead, don't read if you don't want to.

no-one else here then? good.

the damn harry potter is a vortex and jk rowling is indeed a witch, and i seriously doubt that dan radcliffe, rupert grint and emma watson really realize how brilliant the world they're in actually is.

and did i mention that my parents are going to totally flip if they ever go through my pictures? they can use the owners' administrator account and all that jazz, and they'll find the ohsofine men of harry potter and more, namely;

1) tom felton. obviously. did i even need to mention that? as if i haven't already a billion and one times? -is hysterical.

2) dan radcliffe. just because he's beautiful. and i have a thing for ocular aesthetic pleasures. read that sentence as u wish.

3) jason isaacs. luciuslove.

4) alan rickman. snape!hotness.

5) jeremy sumpter. flying around in leaves and nothing else is just so squee.

6) jude law. beacuse that man is a walking greek god, and Alfie is NC-16, so i'm getting my fill.

7) ewan mcgregor. ehrmm.

i am not yet done but my darling mother is, once again, pulling the puppet strings. oh well, i've got inspiration for fanfiction, so i shall use some mental images i burnt into my brain for substitute to real, droolable pix.

life must be good.

and did i mention the bizarre thing that happened last wednesday? i lied to my mother [that is wrong, don't keep on reminding me] that i had tribune. then i went to watch national treasure [is very good, much like da vinci code.] with melzz and syimah, had to sms my mother constantly throughout the movie, then rushed off to buy shirt for melzz's dad and drinks at seveneleven, then to kinokuniya where my family was.

then we ate.

and went to watch NT. again. because my parents were oblivious to the fact that i had just done so, and had an amazing time in the bargain.

and im going again for an actual tribune outing tomorrow, and watching it.

convuluted. much.

bannd.

2004-12-26T23:59:00.000-08:00

my darling mother is banning me from the computer. she doesn't seem to understand that i'm using it as a form of escapism at the moment.

the only reason why i use it is for Harry Potter. i watched the special ed VCD last night, and i believe that i am seriously obsessed. this is bad. naturally. all i think about is harry potter, all my thoughts eventually wind up comparing something with an aspect of it.

oh well. i expect that i'll grow out of it eventually, though the idea that a lot of people in it's fandom reach to the late-20s, married even, is not encouraging. hell, i may be stuck with HP till im thirty.

right.

2004-12-24T21:23:00.000-08:00

right, so you've all come here for a spot of entertainment and enlightenment on the enigmanent liyana m.

so i'm betting that i'll see lot of disappointed faces in the audience in response to this entry then.

in any case, i miss having Blogger online journal, and i'm not completely sure what i'll use this for. probably for inane musings on specific subjects, rather than logs of my daily activities and such. consider this a forum of kinds. and don't be insulted by anything here, i'm just having a bit of fun.

there's a minibio to the right, along with links to a more comprehensive autobiography. at least, i plan to get one up as soon as i finish this entry, and the odds of me actually getting down to write about myself are... 50-50. start hoping.

so yes, go enjoy yourself ogling at draco malfoy while i sift through my bookmarked pages choosing those i want to link.

2004-12-23T21:12:00.000-08:00

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